What I did in 2016

Unemployment: I became unemployed on the first day of 2016, and I figured I would use the break to figure what the hell I wanted to do exactly and focus on prepping for an exam I was due to take in June.

Exams: I cleared the exam I worked hard on for the first five months of 2016 – and with very good results might I add – and also got some tuition money back in the process which for my soon-to-be broke self was a big deal. Extra saving/spending money? I’ll take it, thank you very much.

Gym & working out: I started going to the gym for the first time in my life and it was perfect until the only ladies’ gym in my area decided to close down. I’m naturally slim so my goal wasn’t weight but strength and although some days I loathed it, I became aware of the changes working out regularly did to my state of mind and body.

Hair experimentation: I got my hair colored for the first time in my life earlier this year and I liked it but I’m not sure if I’ll keep doing it. Probably not. Last month I chopped off hair I had been growing religiously for the past two years and finally felt like myself in a long time.

Volunteering: I volunteered at a training center for children with special needs for a couple of days and I was humbled by how the kids there, despite their challenges, are so ready to take on life. Definitely want to do more next year.

Weddings: Sure, I’ve attended weddings where the brides have been younger than me, but this time the wedding was of a very close younger cousin of mine, so it was definitely weird with a pinch of melancholia and a whole lot of fun.

Awkward meetings: Speaking of weddings, I had my first ever (and last) ‘boy’s parents meet girl’ meeting and it was the most awkward thing I had to do this year and needless to say, a disaster.

Books & reading: I read about 30 books in the second half of 2016. I don’t think I read any in the first half and being unemployed was a boon in a way because I had never before gotten so much time to just read and reflect.

Dancing: Learnt some choreo, had some fun.

Skateboarding: I’ve wanted to learn to skate for a while now and this year I finally got myself a skateboard and found out that I love skating on it. Tricks next year? Who knows, the future is wild.

Blogging again: Much less frequently than I would like to, but something is always better than nothing.

Studying again: I started studying again for my next level of exams. Good thing I actually like absorbing information into my brain because there is quite a bit to take in.

New job: I got a job in a company I’ve always had a lot of respect for and although the position is temporary, I’m looking forward to learning new things and meeting new people.

Ermm..that’s all I can think of, for now.

For me personally, 2016 was a year of self-doubt, self inflicted misery  and settling for less and the world around me hasn’t done all that well either. I’m creating a vision board to get my shit together in 2017 and I hope the world around me does as well.

Here’s to a healthy, happy & productive new year. Cheers!

I woke up.

Today morning, I woke up.

I did not take a shower. But then again, when you’re unemployed, taking a shower in the morning is virtually unheard of. I made my bed. Because I figured I would have to lie down on it again exhausted after two hours of hard hitting procrastination – and I’m only unemployed – not an animal, I need a made-bed to lie in. I started this book by Jeffrey Archer called Paths of Glory. About a mountain climbing adrenaline junkie in the early 1900’s. Must feel nice, to know exactly what you’re set out to do in life. I’m talking about both Archer and George Mallory.

While I’m unemployed, I do have a job. And that is being the unpaid chauffeur of the family. My niece has to be picked up from school at 1.30, my mom has to go shopping and my younger sister has an interview she needs to be driven to. Rinse and repeat.

I’m also learning German. I dance as well. So although I’m unemployed, on paper it looks like I have quite busy days. Not really. The German learning happens every third day. The intense dancing happens once in a blue moon -usually after I’ve had Burn, this new energy drink that is my only motivator in life.

Dancing aside, I’m free styling right now though. I did not mean to publish a post today but my spontaneity and spunk in life got the better of me, I guess.

Cheerios.

 

 

Early morning ramble

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I’m at the awkward age where half of my friends are getting married, settling down and the other half are getting high as *censored* and I’m just here unemployed and going ‘I want to travel!’ with an empty purse in my hand.

Being unemployed is a chore. You tend to forget you’re supposed to be doing something in the first place, tend to forget you’re supposed to be searching and it’s just easier to curve into a ball and sleep away all your worries. But NO, don’t do it! I can’t say I’ve been giving it my 101 per cent but I have been trying, applying, making contacts, but until then, patience is key.

In the meanwhile, there’s always SO much you can do. For one, I’ve been brushing up on my knowledge, there’s just always so much you forget -and love to forget might I add-once you’re done with your academics(for now) and forgetting the basics and looking like an idiot in front of the interviewer is something I’d like to avoid.

I started learning German, a lil at a time. Why German you ask? Well, when your favourite national football team is Germany, it’s frustrating to watch or read interviews and not know what they’re saying unless there are subtitles on the screen. Ah, I’m always up for learning new languages, just needed ‘a reason’ and there you have it. Now the problem is I don’t have any German friends, so you! If you’re reading this and you’re German, halo!

My mom’s been trying to fix my cooking, and where I come from, if your rotis aren’t round and fluffy, you’re just no good enough for the real world mate. And then I found out that I actually enjoy cooking up stuff that I like eating, although my baking skills leave a lot to be desired.

What else can you do when you’re unemployed and have no money? Books! Read and read. Go to the library or *rolls eyes* use your iPad or whatever tablet/phone – sorry I belong to the dwindling numbers that still cherish the smell of books, actually turning pages and marking the page where you pause with actual physical bookmarkers. But yes, I have caved in and read books online; for example after having a ‘The Hunger Games’ movie marathon (I hadn’t read the books before the movie) I just HAD to know what would happen next. Where was Peta and was he okay? ‘’This is the Revolution, and you’re the mocking jay.’’ Care explaining more?! I couldn’t possibly wait until the next year for the third instalment to release and I couldn’t wait to go outside and get a copy of the book, so I went online and got the e-book. So yes, getting back to the point, read! As much as you can, stuff related to your profession and for pleasure.

And then there are mornings such as these, when I sit in front of the laptop with a cup of tea(or coffee) on the side with my nerd glasses perched on my nose, that I write. My dad inculcated in his children the habit to read from a very early age, and from that stemmed writing. When I was younger, I used to write a lot more than I do now. Short poems, fiction – I used to love making up characters and plots.  As I grew older it gradually decreased and then I more or less put a stopper on it. Don’t get me wrong, I still write (as is evident)  but I guess it had to do with the fact that I realized I wasn’t really all that good; I have no problems in admitting. I still can and do write snippets here and there but nothing life changing. Maybe it had to do something with my school that focused solely on academic excellence and didn’t give us much time or inspiration to do anything more.

I’m at that age where I want to go places, see new things, explore! Having stayed in Dubai (and no, moving to Sharjah does NOT count) all my life and the only trips that we have made as a family is back and forth to my home country, travelling and recording is something I’m looking forward to doing once I have a non-depressing bank account – the only reason I haven’t packed my bags and headed out the door yet.

Getting back on track, being unemployed – daunting, frustrating, depressing.  But hope, sweet hopes still remain. Everything happens in its own time, keep faith and keep moving. Becoming static while being pushed forward by the waves of time is the worst thing that could happen so don’t let it.

I would love to hear more suggestions on what I could try doing during my career hiatus.

Cheers!